neway, i have so much stuff to do this week. and im just not in the mood. im using a replaced laptop with the same hard drive so pretty much all my stuff is in here, but it stil doesnt feel like its my laptop. i should be happy u know coz this is so much cleaner and i can see the screen without all my fingerprints on it. i am so gross, i know. but i still like my old messy one. this semester classes dont seem too fun. i have two professors who seriosuly need to take some voice modulation classes either that or i need to like sit five inches away from them, so im not distracted.
the whole stress of getting an internship is going to be hitting me soon. im not too sure what i want to do. i dont know if i want to go into trading anymore. sure, the moneys great and then u get to yell at pple not the mean kinda yelling yelling but its a lot of responsibility, risk and u need to really be good at it. i dont know about all three. im absent minded. i left a pen in my jeans the other day. and then put that in the washing machine. now i have blue inky stuff on lot of my clothes. this is worse than when a piece of clothng whose color comes off and dyes your other stuff that color. how can u explain a blot of ink. on all your clothes. they should seriously stop making pockets on pants. and if they do they should make them tiny so you can fit like change or i dont know i should stop with this story.
i think the responsibility stuff kinda scares me, which is why i dont want to get married too soon. yea having to explain why both of your clothes have ink blots on them is going to be taxing. but the thing is i think u should when your life is all planned out you have a focus you know wat ure going to do and its not just that u have to get married coz u know ure getting old and watever and coz ure mom is on ure case or your boyfriends mom is on his case. thats not really a good reason. part of me just doesnt want to grow up and do all these growing up stuff. u know when ure like 14 or so ure like oh i cant wait to get out of school and start working and have a great cool apt and decorate it and watever. then your like 18 and ure like ok i cant wait to have all that and get married. and then your like 21 and ure like oh i wish i wasnt graduating i wish i can start college again. and then now ure 23 and your like oh god i wish i was still finishing high school. its like you keep going back coz your kinda scared of wats going to happen and i guess when you get older u get more realistic or watever you want to call it and the future doesnt seem too idealistic.